Post by Jana Rikar on Jul 13, 2017 4:00:56 GMT
What a wonderful... night...
Jana slowly wakes up, her arms and legs still holding Lex Collins, their bodies turned to the side as they lie in bed together.
My God! I Love this Man...
She softly kisses his shoulder, laying her head against his chest. A soft sigh leaves his lips. He smiles, eyes opening a crack.
"Morning...I think."
"Mmhmm... a good morning too."
She smiles with a near smirk, hidden from his view.
"How do you feel?"
"Bit better. Less like…"
He doesn't finish the thought because he doesn't want to talk about dying. He takes a deep breath, still feeling the ache in his ribs - not completely broken, just a hairline fracture.*
"Feel like I need to get to the bottom of this shit once and for all. Find out why they're tryna push me out." He shifts positions so he can see her, looking sheepish. "Sorry. Was reliving it all night. Fuckin dreams."
"I know. I could tell by how restless you were... that's why I held you all night." She leans up and kisses his lips softly. "I'm sure you'll figure it all out.. but I'm here if you need to bounce an idea or a thought..."
"Sorry..." he murmurs. "Hope I didn't keep you up. Sometimes I can't shut down all the..." he lifts his hand, gesturing vaguely beside his ear... "all the garbage flyin' around in there, y'know?"
"You didn't keep me up at all. I was ....." she sheepishly grins. "quite relaxed. And I know what you mean, got lots going on in my head too..." her demeanor softens, as if she's resigned herself to an end conclusion.
He can't help the reaction to her words, that involuntary tensing that he tries like hell to hide. "Yeah?" He tries to keep it light but there's a hint of wariness in his tone and he can't help but ask like he needs to know. "Penny for your thoughts?"
She lies her head against his chest, as if trying to hide a little. "It's the fed. I can't seem to keep a roster together. Thought i was on the up with Jenn and Miri climbing on board but Fleck leaves. Heidi's medically unfit. Adalynn... just left. She had a title match and just ..... left. Lost her smile or something. I'm having to ask Kamryn to come out of retirement to fill a match this week. I'm getting legends of the DWF to come back but...."
A tear leaves her eye, trailing off of her cheek and onto his chest. "It's just looking bad. We introduced this Titan Title match in two weeks to try to get new eyes and new faces, but only one has jumped at the chance. I have 2 matches at the PPV, and one of those is a Flaming Tables Match and i think one of them is injured so I don't know if that's gonna even be a match. Axxess is pre-empting us often, and I even moved this next show in Johnson City to be on after the LFL Playoffs, to try to add some new viewers with the LFL Lead-in."
Her voice cracks... "I... I'm not expecting people like Grimes or Stevenson or Blake or Rydell, but there's truckloads of people leaving schools and being trained and not a damn one wants to come work for me..."
"Well shit..." Now he feels like a dick for not even noticing how bad it was getting. "If you need bodies for that event... I'll do it. I mean, if it doesn't clash with the other shit I have on my plate. I dunno what to tell ya. I don't know much about that side of things. Seriously thought you were doin' great at first. Mean you signed a couple big names right out the gate."
"And we were, some good vets, some newcomers, and I get that there's ebb and flow. And I'm not.. yeah I am complaining..." She tries to chuckle. "I see all these other places springing up, and people are flocking to them and I'm like. 'Hey! We're over here!' and nothing. I thought it was bad trying to get Arenas and Hotels to lease space to a 19 yr old. I mean, we even let just people come in, have a match, get a pay day and take a leave."
She turns her head and looks up at him. "Honestly, if you asked, I'd say no. Last two times I mixed business with personal, it ... cost me personal.. I'm not losing you, even if i have to go out there myself." She kisses his cheek "... but thank you for the offer."
"Still..." he sighs, shaking his head. "My first impulse is always to find the thing that's broke. Trace it back. Fix it. But I always wanna take things apart to do that... I dunno how to do that here. On the surface, looks like you're doin' it right. Givin' people freedom. Being flexible. Maybe this title gimmick'll do the trick? Maybe..."
Lex shrugs. "Being able to see the future'd really be handy right about now, wouldn't it? Then you'd know if it's worth pourin' the rest of your heart and soul into or if it's time to cut a loss."
"Mmhmm, but I'm not that little girl on that one show I used to watch, even though Mom said we could be twins." She sighs with a slight shrug. "Maybe it'll work. Got nothing to lose right now." Her hand runs around his ribs very carefully. "I'm more worried about getting you better first."
"Don't worry about me," he chuckles softly, "I'm indestructible, Jana... only as reckless as I gotta be these days."
"Okay, Wolverine, whatever you say." She kisses his lips softly, looking at him with some concern. "Seriously though, I do want ... need you better, Ok?"
"Wish I was. Mean, not the way things were in Logan... that movie... goddamn. I always kinda felt for him, y'know? The loner. The guy with the chip on his shoulder as this way to keep the world that kept hurtin' him at bay. I can relate." He lifts his hand, gently running his fingers over her cheek before tucking her hair behind her ears. "I'll get better." The words hold a double meaning, one he's not sure she'll catch.
"I know you will, and I'm gonna be here the entire time. So you may be my Logan, but you're not gonna be alone." Her hand cups his jaw, running her fingers along the edge of his beard. "I just want you healthy , cause I dunno how you can get any better than you are."
He actually blushes, letting out that self-deprecating chuckle as his cheeks and the tips of his ears turn red. "Settle for bein' Logan, but only if I get to have my Jean Grey." He smiles and leans in to kiss her.
"I'll try not to turn into the Phoenix and burn the house down." She smiles and takes his kiss, pleasantly purring as she does.
"Let you loose in the kitchen..." he kisses the end of her nose, chuckling. "...and that'll be accurate."
"Only if we wanna remodel it." Her eyes light up with an idea. "Speaking of remodeling, that one bathroom, we've got to do something with it. Since you're hurt, maybe you can supervise while I take a crack at it."
He nods. "Oh yeah. The floor and that hideous vanity have gotta go."
"Sounds like a fun project. If I can fix a bathroom, why can't I fix a fed, right?" She starts to roll out of bed but looks down then back up at Lex. "I should put clothes on before renovating a bathroom, hmm?"
He grins. "Welllll...yeah. Safety first."